Affair

We walked side by side, his hand around my waist. I couldn't stop thinking about the other important man in my life - my boyfriend.

We walked into a building and stopped by the elevator. His hand still around my waist. The elevator arrived and we walked in.

For some reason - I didn't know why - I stood on tiptoe and gave him a light kiss on his lips. He quickly held me refusing to let me go. I looked down, refusing to meet his eyes. I couldn't, I thought, I simply couldn't. I could feel his gaze burning on me, as if wanting to see right through me. I knew he wanted to kiss me, not a peck like just now but a real kiss - a long, tender kiss. I wouldn't allow him. I couldn't. I had only one thought in my mind, I won't betray my boyfriend.

And that was when I woke up.

A dream of an affair. I wonder why. Is that because I long for it? Some kind of secret fantasy of mine?

Disappearance

It could be nice if one can disappear at will, just like that, into thin air. Just so one doesn't need to go through the trouble of selecting the best way to commit suicide, and executing it. That would definitely be of less effort.

It could also be nice if one, upon disappearing, people's memories of him would be automatically erased. Thus no one would remember him, not even his closest family and friends. Just so people would not be hurt by his non-existence (if any). Just so tears would not be shed, and people would not mourn.

Dream No. 2

What lay beneath my feet is a newly-paved tar road. The kind that is smooth with dark, black colour. I'm standing near the bottom of a hill. Not far from where I am, at the foot of the hill, there's a pool of murky water. I must stay far from the water, I think. Thus I begin walking uphill, slowly at first, then faster.

But it's like running up an escalator, only the escalator is moving downwards, bringing me nearer to the pool of murky water. It's as if the ground beneath my feet has a life of its own and it's moving. The faster I run, the nearer I am to the murky water. Panic overtakes me. I can't stop, can't even stop for breathe. But strange enough, I'm not out of breathe at all, not even close.

As I'm about to give up, a person comes to me. Who is he? Do I know him? "Don't run too fast," he says.

I slow down. "Here, walk with me," he says to me again.

So we walk side by side, slowly, consistently. "The faster you walk, the faster you will be downhill," he says.

Before I even know it, we are already at the top of the hill... and I woke up.

Me : That's it. That's all. It's all I can remember. The rest I've forgotten. There's something else before this scene about a singing competition or something. Totally weird.
Chin : This is a very inspiring dream.
Me : Huh? It seems pointless and meaningless to me.
Chin : It's a message about your career path. I know it's been troubling you in some way. See, the faster you want to climb up the hill, the slower your progress. But if you take it slowly and naturally, you'll eventually end up at the top.
Me : Ooooooooooo... Yeah... Now it makes sense.
Chin : And the person who appeared in your dream, that must be me, rescueing you from your misery.
Me : No it's not.
Chin : Yes it must be.
Me : Please be rest assured that it isn't.
Chin : ...

Dream No. 1

I try to look far. But my view is blocked by the sun shade above the boat. Or is it a ship? It's more like a miniature ship, I think. I'm not sure though.

I'm on a ship with Mr. Chin. I look at him and smile after reacting to LingYue's excited voice. He kissed me tenderly on my cheek. He doesn't do this very often in the public. Feeling a little embarrassed, I ignore him and look away. The sea is blue and crystal clear. The ship is sailing smoothly. Or does it run on a motor? I'm not so sure.

I look down and saw a few people swimming near our ship. One of them is dressed in black suit and tie. I wonder why are they swimming here. It's deep sea. Aren't they afraid they'd drown? Anyway, so that's why the ship is moving forward slowly, to avoid clashing into the people.

The ship then sailed into something like a lagoon, only narrower, very much narrower. There are beach at both sides of the ship. Weird, I think. There are sea turtles resting at the beach. Some are in the water. Their sizes range from baby sea turtles to giant adult sea turtles. I'm amazed simply looking at them. The ship then halted to a stop. LingYue jumps into the sea without a second of delay.

Before I know it I'm already in the water, with Mr. Chin right beside me, together with another Caucasian girl. She's also with the snorkeling team. I'm not very sure though whether we're here to snorkel or other activities. Anyway, her grandma just passed away recently and... Yeah, basically that's all I know about her.

At some point we somehow dived into the water. I can even open my eyes and hold my breath when I'm underneath. Amazing. The girl, for some reason she is holding on to a rope (which is tied to the ship) to pull herself up to the surface. She pauses a few seconds with her head above the water, then she sinks back down, looking stunned. But she then recollects herself and swims away.

I'm curious as to why she reacts that way. So I ask Mr. Chin to pull me up to the surface to take a look. I'm shocked when I see what lies before me. Floating on the water, is the girl's grandma. I know her because I've seen her picture before. Grandma looks at me and smiles gently. And then it's time to go back. So I wave at her. She waves back. I look at Mr. Chin and realize he is looking at me as though he doesn't know who am I waving to. And I understand that he can't see what I see.

And before we can reach the ship to embark on a journey back, I woke up.

Yes it was a dream. I woke up feeling disturbed on a Sunday morning. Mr. Chin was the only person I got a chance to tell about this dream. And he, too agreed that it is peculiar and disturbing, especially the part about a man dressed in suit swimming in the sea. How weird.

Anyway, I just thought of sharing this. My posts in September are mostly for sharing, I realized. And this post is entitled "Dream No. 1" because I'm actually looking forward to dreaming more of these scary and weird dreams.

Call me a weirdo but I kind of like strange things. ;)