loneliness

it feels so strange

and yet so familiar

the feeling of loneliness

when was the last time i felt it

i don't remember

home alone watching freedom writers for the umpteenth time

it never fail to touch me

never fail to awaken my tears

i guess that was when the loneliness crept in

silently

without a trace

i couldn't resist

i thought i didn't care

when they said they were busy

when they said they couldn't come

when she said i couldn't go visit

and

when i asked him not to call
i thought i'd be fine

i thought

when was the last time i felt this way

i can't remember

but the feeling is familiar

and yet so strange